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Different Direction!

Hey everyone!

So I have decided to go in a different direction with this blog. As I’m sure you’ve noticed it’s been all over the place in the past. With fiction stories, poems, ranting, music and movie reviews. There’s been topics about everything on here and I want to streamline it and make it more about one thing and more cohesive.

I still want to write fiction and keep up on my creative writing so what I’m going to do is start a diary from a fictional character and write the blog from that perspective so that it will have more creative elements and more of a focus and a storyline. I am currently not feeling well but hopefully the first post will be up sometime between tonight and tomorrow. I look forward to hearing your thoughts and comments about this once it takes off and I hope you will all continue to support me!

I also recently got a different job and it has more of a set schedule so I should be able to post pretty regularly. I want to be able to give you guys more content and more to follow than just posting once or twice every few weeks and I do apologize for all the inconsistencies in my writing.

Once I get going on this, if it’s really popular and something people like and want to see more of, I might recruit a follower or two to do some cover art or illustrations for me as well!

I hope this works out and I’m really liking this new direction!

Again thank you all for the support!

~Crystal~

What’s the point?

I haven’t been writing often.

The reason for that is two sided but they also intertwine.

I’ve been struggling with feeling depressed lately. I’ve been tired and sluggish and emotional and losing interest in everyday activities.

Another reason, that could be fueling my depression is often I’ll sit down to write but it’ll occur to me that my writing doesn’t matter. That my words will have no impact on anyone. That what I have to say doesn’t matter to anyone. And that’s when I have to wonder what the point is writing anything at all in the first place.

I love writing and being creative and I hope I can get back into the swing of things. Until then I hope you can all be patient with me and understanding while I try to find inspiration. Thank you all.

Lost Again

I flinch when you yell too loud,

Even when it’s not at me.

And I cry behind my hands,

When I know you can’t see.

I try to hide the pain and the anxiety

I smile even when my heart is breaking

And I’ve lost track of everything I should be faking

I’m ashamed of this sickness, this hold it has on me

And my reactions to this ridiculous disease.

I don’t know how to tell you that I can see the demons in my head.

That they’re so real to me, sometimes I hide from them.

I keep my heart closed so it can’t break again.

And I write out these words when I want it to end.

But on the outside I look fine and I laugh and I joke.

And then I turn away right before I’m about to choke.

When I open up and try to say what’s wrong,

These words get stuck and all tangled up.

I get so defensive, I even get mad at myself.

But all I hear is silence when I’m screaming for help.

They’re like, it’s a defense mechanism and you’ll be fine,

But I’m so fucking defensive all the fucking time.

If I didn’t do anything wrong, why am I sitting here in tears?

And why do I feel like you’re gone even when you’re right here?

I feel like I’ve lost you and everyone else.

When really the only person I’ve lost is myself.

Her Broken Mechanical Heart

She dropped the wrench on the ground. She was so flustered these days that she couldn’t even fix this simple hover bot she had been working on. A project that usually took her 2 days was now headed into a week and a half and the owner was threatening to take his business elsewhere. To the mechanic cyborg down the street. And that was just the problem.

That stubborn, mechanical, shiny and sexy cyborg. He was part machine, part human. Mostly machine but his face was still ruggedly handsome, and his smirk made her mechanical heart skip a beat. She was becoming defective, she needed a new upgrade. She shouldn’t be feeling this way. There was nothing in her programming that would constitute what was going on. Her heart was thumping along much faster than the metal wires should have allowed. Her brain components were going haywire. And her usually perfect bionic sight went all hazy when she was near him.

Both of them being mechanics she was near him quite often. They worked in a small village and they were constantly competing for clients and for work. She worked her mechanical butt off trying to out work him and get more business…at least, that’s how it used to be. Until she fell in love with him. Now she wasn’t focused, was taking longer to work on her projects and was losing customers to him. And he had no idea. He couldn’t feel emotion. Up until 3 months ago, she hadn’t been able to either. But something had snapped in her. Had short circuited. Now she was feeling things forbidden to her kind and having thoughts that would make her creator keel over. And that wasn’t even the worst. The worst was the dreams.

Every night when plugged in to charge up the dreams came. Dreams of them together working, out on walks, in bed…thoughts that couldn’t come true because of basic anatomy but that didn’t stop her mind from wandering. And lately the human part of her that was left seemed to being forcing it’s dominance on the rest of her. If she didn’t get fixed soon she would be doomed to a life of loneliness, and, no income.

She decided to go see the cyborg doctor in the morning, as she gave up, again, on her hover bot project.

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Hey everyone! That’s everything! I hope you liked it and please let me know if you want to hear more. I might definitely write more. This is an idea i’ve been toying around with for a while and I would love to flesh it out a bit!

Again thank you everyone for sticking with me and I definitely plan to be writing more in the future than I have been!

Goodnight,

Crystal

Return from an unplanned hiatus

Hey everyone!

I know it’s been a couple months since I’ve written anything on here and I just want to apologize for that. I moved in with my boyfriend and his sister about two months ago and the original plan was that right after we got internet set up in the new house I would start writing again.

Well with it being an older house some things came up with the plumbing and insulation and stuff and with getting all of that fixed and now getting ready for the Christmas season it’s all been a bit overwhelming while also getting used to an overnight shift.

I appreciate everyone’s understanding and promise I will¬† be writing on here more from now on. Hopefully later tonight I can write a longer piece, maybe something fiction and get back on the ball. I am back on my thyroid medicine after neglecting to take it for a while and am feeling a bit better. Thank you everyone again for the continued support. I was blown awhile when I realized that not only had I not lost all my followers,¬† but there were still people checking my blog even though I hadn’t written in months. This gave me an overwhelming sense of hope and support and I can’t thank you enough!

Love, Plutorawr (aka-Crystal)

Cold Feet?

Hey everyone!

How is everyone? So I know it’s been a while but I have been working on moving lately and it’s been hectic with packing and work and my boyfriend’s grandmother is up for vacation.

I’ve been feeling kinda hesitant lately though and I’m not sure whether that’s normal or not. I’m moving in with my boyfriend and his sister and I’m getting a big case of nerves. I’ve lived with my parents for 25 years now and it’s going to be a big change from what I’m used to.

I suppose I’m also kinda worried that once we’re living together we might come across issues that we haven’t before and I’m worried if we can overcome them or not.

If you have read my blog before you know that I have anxiety and this could just be caused from nerves and from the unreasonable anxiety I get sometimes.

I guess I’m just using this blog post to vent because I’ve been having a lot of worries lately and I’m not sure where to turn to.

If anyone else has been in this kinda situation let me know and how you ended up. Maybe it will end up helping me too. Thanks again and thanks for all the support!

Also a big shoutout to the Blog Complainer for putting my poem on his blog and sharing it with his viewers!

Moving

Hey everyone!

I just want to apologize for the long delays in me writing. I’m currently packing and getting ready to move by the end of the month so it’s been really hectic and busy. I’m hoping after I’ve moved that I will have more time to write and really connect with you guys and hopefully even get some videos out!

For now I hope you guys enjoy this short poem!

You can also check out my poetry on Allpoetry.com under the name Angelgreen39

Speaking in Tongues

Your breath is like smoke
Hot and humid, burning up my skin.
All consuming, all around me.
You’re in all my senses, seeping through my pores
We’re speaking without the interruption of sound.
Your tongue is like the lick of a flame
Hot and sensuous on my body
My nerves hit with bolts like lightning
I gasp in a breath.
My mind freezes up
In the heat of the inferno
And I understand you perfectly
As you burn me up in flames.

A Blogging Experiment

Hey everyone!

So I am currently doing a kind of experiment where I am trying to find the best way to generate traffic and views for my blog.

I am doing this a number of ways but the one I wanted to talk about today is by linking my blog to a bunch of other sites and hoping that by combining all of my different audiences on the other sites, they are all led back here to my blog!

I would like to say up front that this method of generating traffic can be quite confusing.

You need to keep track of all the sites you’re using to promote your blog on and your usernames and passwords for all of them as well.

I recommend using your bookmarks toolbar and bookmarking them all to a specific folder.

In addition to this you should have the device remember your passwords if you can so you don’t need to keep all of your passwords and information written down somewhere.

For this I am using the mainstream sites such as Facebook and Twitter but also some lesser known ones like All Poetry so that I can generate as much as a varied audience as possible.

Another important note is that while I am including the link to my blog on all of the sites, I’m not including links to each site and linking them all together.

There are two main reasons why I’m not linking them all together.

  1. It would take way too long and be difficult to go through each time I make a new site or post and add it to all the other ones I am on and vice versa.
  2. I am promoting my blog and not the other sites so it doesn’t make sense spending all the time and effort to link to all the other sites when my blog is the only one I need people to be able to link back to.

I am expecting most of my views to come from following new people on WordPress but I am hoping by going through and looking at different options I might be able to gain a more varied and bigger following on here.

I would also like to add that even if you’re using this method to try to gain traffic for your blog you should also use the other methods such as keeping your blog up to date and using your tags wisely to get your blog looked at more.

In the past I have found that reading and following blogs that interest you and relate to what you’re writing about is a very effective way to gain followers.

I would also note that while these tips can be used in any blogging, I am using them specifically for the WordPress blogging site.

To make a long story short, I am hoping that having my blog on as many places in the internet as I can, it’s more likely that it will get viewed by more people and generate a steady stream of views and followers.

Thank you all and I will let you know what happens with this experiment including the pros and cons of such!

Guest Writer

Hey everyone!

So I have sort of a strange request today.

I’ve been contemplating lately how to get more traffic and views on my blog and I wanted to ask if any of my wonderful readers would let me write a poem or piece of fiction for their blog and just include a link to my blog as well?

Or if the knew of anyone looking for a guest blogger of sorts?

If any of you know of someone that could help me, please comment below. I would love to help another writer out with content and, in turn, get some views on my blog as well in the hopes to grow it.

Please have a lovely night!

 

Support and Help

Hey everyone!

I want to start out by thanking everyone for following my blog. It honestly amazes me that people would choose to read what I write and actually take an interest in what I have to say!

I am writing just to remind everyone of my Patreon Account. I don’t like to push the money factor but, if I am to do this as a career like I hope, I do need some financial support. I am currently working a full time job and working on moving so it’s quite hard to keep up with this as well.

If you can donate anything at all, I would greatly appreciate it and, even if you can’t donate, please feel free to share my blog with your readers and friends as well. I would greatly appreciate it!

In my social media post is a link to my Facebook and Twitter where my new posts are automatically shared, along with a link to my Patreon. I will share that blog post here as well.

Again, no matter if you can donate or not, I greatly appreciate all my readers and followers!

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