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Makeup Video!

Hello everyone!

So I am currently still working on the motorcycle post but I did want something to post for you guys so I made a makeup video. I am going to post it here but I want to clarify a few things. First, I am sorry for the horrible lighting. The only light I have in my room is the one casting a horrible glare on my face. Second, I couldn’t make any noise because I do currently live with my parents and they were sleeping. I didn’t want my talking to wake them up. I have plans to get a standing lamp or at least a desk lamp and, hopefully a mic or something where I can talk quietly and still be heard. I did post pictures at the end of the video to show the finished look so I hope that helps. Feel free to ask any questions! Thank you

As always, have a good night!

I didn’t have time for suicide

This is in fact a poem, I like to write poetry, another one of my coping mechanisms and this is one that I wrote today. Not one of my better poems but it was how I was feeling. I hope you all like it. Please comment and follow if you want to see more. Thank you.

 

I didn’t have time to kill myself today

The laundry wasn’t done

The dishes weren’t clean.

I could have done it after lunch,

But I had to mop the floor

and there was too much dust to ignore.

I had to go to the grocery store,

and the checkout line, was out the door.

I could have done it when I got home,

But on my way, I had to answer the phone.

After the phone call and dishes and tea,

There was no more time to kill the other me.

So I went to bed and pull up the sheets,

Maybe tomorrow I thought, as I fell asleep.

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So I didn’t write this to glamorize suicide or anything like that. I wrote it with the message in mind that the chores and all the things I have to do in a day are sometimes the only things I have to hold onto when the depression kicks in. Sometimes when you’re feeling suicidal and down and alone, you look for the slightest thing, anything, in your life to keep you moving, to hold onto when you feel like everything is slipping away and it’s not worth it anymore. So something as small as chores can get you through this bump in the road. I’d really like to know what you all thought of it, thank you and please comment and follow if you’d like to see more from me!