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Cold Feet?

Hey everyone!

How is everyone? So I know it’s been a while but I have been working on moving lately and it’s been hectic with packing and work and my boyfriend’s grandmother is up for vacation.

I’ve been feeling kinda hesitant lately though and I’m not sure whether that’s normal or not. I’m moving in with my boyfriend and his sister and I’m getting a big case of nerves. I’ve lived with my parents for 25 years now and it’s going to be a big change from what I’m used to.

I suppose I’m also kinda worried that once we’re living together we might come across issues that we haven’t before and I’m worried if we can overcome them or not.

If you have read my blog before you know that I have anxiety and this could just be caused from nerves and from the unreasonable anxiety I get sometimes.

I guess I’m just using this blog post to vent because I’ve been having a lot of worries lately and I’m not sure where to turn to.

If anyone else has been in this kinda situation let me know and how you ended up. Maybe it will end up helping me too. Thanks again and thanks for all the support!

Also a big shoutout to the Blog Complainer for putting my poem on his blog and sharing it with his viewers!

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Moving

Hey everyone!

I just want to apologize for the long delays in me writing. I’m currently packing and getting ready to move by the end of the month so it’s been really hectic and busy. I’m hoping after I’ve moved that I will have more time to write and really connect with you guys and hopefully even get some videos out!

For now I hope you guys enjoy this short poem!

You can also check out my poetry on Allpoetry.com under the name Angelgreen39

Speaking in Tongues

Your breath is like smoke
Hot and humid, burning up my skin.
All consuming, all around me.
You’re in all my senses, seeping through my pores
We’re speaking without the interruption of sound.
Your tongue is like the lick of a flame
Hot and sensuous on my body
My nerves hit with bolts like lightning
I gasp in a breath.
My mind freezes up
In the heat of the inferno
And I understand you perfectly
As you burn me up in flames.

Late night poem

Fuck me like you mean it

Like you need me.

Because I’m drowning again.

Making love to my insecurities.

I don’t believe it

Not for a minute.

I know you love me baby.

And I feel happy in your arms

But right now I’m slow dancing with my anxiety.

There’s tears coming in waves through my body.

And I don’t even know why

I thought I was happy.

Maybe it’s the depression talking

Or is that me?

It’s hard to tell the difference when I can’t even breath.

I distracted myself for a while

And maybe I was ok.

But it’s quiet and dark now

And nothing’s alright.

Do you think one day I’ll get over this?

Do you think it’s like the flu?

I don’t think that’s how it works

But god I hope so too.

I don’t want to feel this way

I want to live without a pause

Without stopping when the demons come to call

That must be what this is

Because It’s stealing my life away

And if this is just some game then I don’t want to play.

I’m laying here again with these tears on my face

I’m supposed to feel safe but I’m so tired of this place.

Would you like to switch bodies so I can escape for a while?

My mind is broken and I just want to be a carefree child

Do you want to hold me for a bit?

I think it could help

Even if I can’t be fixed.

Would you lay next to me in bed?

Please, save me from the monsters in my head.

News and new articles

Hey everyone! How are you? I’m sorry it’s been a while since I’ve been posting new things. I’ve been working a LOT recently and have been too tired when I’m not working to really post anything. However that’s hopefully going to change and that’s kind of what this post is about. I want to turn blogging into a living. I hate my current job because I work with the public and it makes me irritable and annoyed and quite tired as well to be around people all day. I much prefer to have time to myself and just relax. Since it takes money to do something for a living, I have made a Patreon page which I will include the link to if anyone wants to subscribe. Basically in return for subscribing you will receive a monthly newsletter letting you know about upcoming articles and videos (yes I will be trying to transition into video blogging alongside this blog) before anyone else knows about them and little tidbits and details others won’t know about. If you pick the next tier up to subscribe you will also receive a shout out both in this blog and whatever video I post after you subscribe as a thank you! As my blog and video blogging increases and my following gets bigger, there will be better rewards and information for subscribers.

If you can’t help through Patreon that’s absolutely ok! Just having people read my posts and be interested in what I’m doing and talking about is amazing to me! So thank you SO much for your support and for inspiring me to continue writing!

So, since as of yet I don’t have any subscribers, I’m going to let ALL of my wonderful readers know what’s coming up. First is going to be an article about motorcycle gangs and their connection (Real and imagined) to hell and Satan. After that I’m going to try to get back into writing fiction with my short stories and poems and I also want to do a makeup video. So, that’s what’s in the works and I’m so excited for you all to join me in this journey! Thank you again. As always, have a good night!

 

Patreon link:

https://www.patreon.com/Crystal4213