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New Tattoo!

Hello everyone!

How is everyone? I just recently got a new tattoo on Tuesday. I will share a picture here:36978827_1754690367940127_1359701163179507712_n

I got this done by Chip Beam at Artifex in Vestal NY. Pain wise it definitely didn’t tickle but the pain was bearable and I was able to sit through it (I’m also a wuss). Chip is pretty quick at tattooing so I think this took 25mins max to do with a touchup on my other tattoo.

Price wise I paid $150 for this and the touch up. The tattoo shop is very clean and sanitized between each client (3 of us went). He was talkative and I felt very comfortable there and not like a nuisance like I had experienced in previous experiences.

Overall it was a good time and I would definitely recommend Chip if you’re in the area and looking to get a tattoo. Make sure you call and make an appointment though because we had to book our appointments pretty far in advance.

On other notes, I am going to try to make another makeup video soon and probably a couple more reviews. Maybe some poems. Let me know what you’d like to see most! Thanks for all the support!

As always, have a good night!

 

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Coco

Hey everyone!

So I watched a new Disney movie the other night and I wanted to share my opinions on it.¬† The movie is called Coco. There’s this boy who ends up in the Land of the Dead and is trying to find De la Cruz!

So, I’m not going to give spoilers but I really liked the movie. It’s cute and the animation is adorable. It did make me cry though and some themes I thought were a little much for children. (such as murder). Overall I think it’s a great family movie and I would definitely watch it again. The colors and details are adorable and will definitely be enjoyed by kids.

If there’s a movie you would like to see me rate, let me know!

Thanks for all your support!

 

Makeup Video?

Just a quick post. I’ve been doing my makeup more often and slowly gaining a little bit of confidence. Would anyone be interested in watching me do a makeup tutorial? I’ve been thinking about it on and off and was wondering if anyone would be interested. Please let me know down in the comments. Also, how has everyone been? I’d love to hear about any adventures or summer activities that have been going on. I’m going on vacation at the end of next month and will be sure to take lots of pictures.

Thanks everyone and sorry for the short post. I will try to post more soon. Thanks again!

Juggling Life

Hey everyone!

So I just wanted to pop in here and say hi to everyone, see how everyone is doing. Just small talk and chilling. I want to keep it real with you guys and be open and communicative.

Lately I have been trying to juggle a lot of things between my bills and a full time job and my relationship and still trying to make room for my hobbies like blogging and makeup and everything so I want you guys to know you’re not being ignored and I’m not forgetting about this blog. It’s just a bit harder to write on this daily and remember to post things every single night and, honestly, sometimes I sit down to write a post on here and just don’t really have anything to talk about.

Anyway that was my short rant and I wanted to say hi and let everyone know I’m still here and hopefully I will have a longer and more substantial post coming up soon!

Thanks and have a great night!

Some changes and some notes

Hello everyone!

I am going to probably post a short story tonight but this is just a maintenance post about the blog. I have added a menu to my blog but I wasn’t sure how to really add posts to pages and take them off the home page. To basically have certain pages for different themed things like one for poems/stories, one for thoughts etc. So as of right now I’m going to be adding my short stories and poems to the menu bar until/if I can find a better way to organize that. The dog in the header is my beautiful dog. Again not giving away a name for privacy purposes. Another note is that I am going to try to add a post every day. If I don’t I tend to get offtrack and forget to post and then it turns into me not posting for a month and a half. You will only see all my posts if you follow :p.

That’s about it for this maintenance post, keep an eye out for my short story which I will either post tonight or sometime tomorrow before my daily post. I’m also thinking about doing some contest thing where I have a writing contest and whoever wins gets their blog featured in one of my posts etc. Really not sure and I don’t have enough followers for that right now so stay tuned! Have a wonderful night.

A new start

So, as you know from a couple posts back, I decided to stop doing SFI. Along with at I went through and deleted all of my posts from doing SFI. I want to take a new direction with this blog and make it more personal and more a discussion type of thing.

Another reason I decided to get rid of the older posts is because they link to my SFI page which has a picture of me on there as well as some private information. Some of my posts on this blog are going to be a more personal nature and talk about sensitive topics and I’d rather remain anonymous. I’m always here to talk and have a discussion but would rather not share any personal details about myself. There is, however, an exception to that. I have decided that if I get a significant amount of followers from this I will switch to video blogging and post my videos on YouTube as well as on here. I don’t expect that to happen soon, if ever, so for now I will be leaving this anonymous.

Now, on to the actual content of this post: anxiety. I suffer from really bad anxiety (undiagnosed) and depression (also undiagnosed) Sometimes I have a hard time coping and convincing myself everything is going to be ok and other days i’m fine and everything is sunshine and rainbows. I overthink almost everything people say to me and around me, I reread text messages that I send and that people send to me multiple times to make sure it sounds ok and I will usually find a hidden meaning in them that’s not actually there. I panic about the smallest things like going to a friend’s house or asking someone a simple question.

As for the depression part, I have cut in the past. Thankfully it’s been a long time. I feel emotions very deeply, especially love and sadness. Sometimes I find myself deeply upset and crying for no apparent reason. I cry myself to sleep more often than I let people know and I have days where I would prefer to sleep the day away and not get out of bed. I would also like to say that as someone who has cut, it is not romantic or “beautiful” and should not be glorified in anyway, shape or form. I’m not shaming those who do it or have done because I can relate but in my personal experience I didn’t do it so people would see my scars and pity me and feel sympathy for me. I did it because at the time¬† the pain from cutting wasn’t as bad as the emotional pain I was feeling and it was a sort of release. Luckily I have found better ways to cope since then such as reading, doing this blog, bubble baths, and listening to music. Sometimes exercise when I get really bored.

I find that something I really struggle with is being able to talk to people about how I’m feeling without it being medically diagnosed by a professional. I commend people who are going through these problems and struggles and who seek professional help and are getting the help that they need. I can neither afford professional help, nor do I want it. I don’t fancy the idea of taking medicines that will make me feel numb or nothing at all and as for talking to people I have my amazingly supportive boyfriend and all of you. However, sometimes people don’t take me seriously when I say I’m anxious or depressed. Yes I may not be CLINICALLY depressed or anxious but I know on some level the emotions I’m feeling and the way I’m thinking aren’t normal and I don’t feel that that should make my struggle any less concrete and important.

For society’s and simplicity’s sake I usually just say I’m feeling anxious or unusually upset when I talk about my feelings and I suppose I will do that through these as well. Please comment below about ways you find to cope even if it’s not with anxiety or depression but with any struggles and obstacles you may have and please NO negative comments. This is a safe space for open discussion and support. You are entitled to your opinions but DON’T be rude!

I am going to say goodnight for now and just share a song below that I heard for the first time today that I really relate to and explains how I feel and I hope it will help and comfort some of you as well!

 

PS-any pictures that I share in my posts have been taken and edited by me if they were edited. Please do not redistribute or use them without my permission. If you choose to ignore this then please at least credit this blog if you use them. Thank you!