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Late night poem

Fuck me like you mean it

Like you need me.

Because I’m drowning again.

Making love to my insecurities.

I don’t believe it

Not for a minute.

I know you love me baby.

And I feel happy in your arms

But right now I’m slow dancing with my anxiety.

There’s tears coming in waves through my body.

And I don’t even know why

I thought I was happy.

Maybe it’s the depression talking

Or is that me?

It’s hard to tell the difference when I can’t even breath.

I distracted myself for a while

And maybe I was ok.

But it’s quiet and dark now

And nothing’s alright.

Do you think one day I’ll get over this?

Do you think it’s like the flu?

I don’t think that’s how it works

But god I hope so too.

I don’t want to feel this way

I want to live without a pause

Without stopping when the demons come to call

That must be what this is

Because It’s stealing my life away

And if this is just some game then I don’t want to play.

I’m laying here again with these tears on my face

I’m supposed to feel safe but I’m so tired of this place.

Would you like to switch bodies so I can escape for a while?

My mind is broken and I just want to be a carefree child

Do you want to hold me for a bit?

I think it could help

Even if I can’t be fixed.

Would you lay next to me in bed?

Please, save me from the monsters in my head.

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Makeup Video!

Hello everyone!

So I am currently still working on the motorcycle post but I did want something to post for you guys so I made a makeup video. I am going to post it here but I want to clarify a few things. First, I am sorry for the horrible lighting. The only light I have in my room is the one casting a horrible glare on my face. Second, I couldn’t make any noise because I do currently live with my parents and they were sleeping. I didn’t want my talking to wake them up. I have plans to get a standing lamp or at least a desk lamp and, hopefully a mic or something where I can talk quietly and still be heard. I did post pictures at the end of the video to show the finished look so I hope that helps. Feel free to ask any questions! Thank you

As always, have a good night!