Fuck me like you mean it
Like you need me.
Because I’m drowning again.
Making love to my insecurities.
I don’t believe it
Not for a minute.
I know you love me baby.
And I feel happy in your arms
But right now I’m slow dancing with my anxiety.
There’s tears coming in waves through my body.
And I don’t even know why
I thought I was happy.
Maybe it’s the depression talking
Or is that me?
It’s hard to tell the difference when I can’t even breath.
I distracted myself for a while
And maybe I was ok.
But it’s quiet and dark now
And nothing’s alright.
Do you think one day I’ll get over this?
Do you think it’s like the flu?
I don’t think that’s how it works
But god I hope so too.
I don’t want to feel this way
I want to live without a pause
Without stopping when the demons come to call
That must be what this is
Because It’s stealing my life away
And if this is just some game then I don’t want to play.
I’m laying here again with these tears on my face
I’m supposed to feel safe but I’m so tired of this place.
Would you like to switch bodies so I can escape for a while?
My mind is broken and I just want to be a carefree child
Do you want to hold me for a bit?
I think it could help
Even if I can’t be fixed.
Would you lay next to me in bed?
Please, save me from the monsters in my head.